do you want the truth?

unfortunately, i don't have that either. what i have running around my head right now are a million thoughts. they are unmistakeably related. and its point of origin? my modified version of a prisoner's dilemma. this is an economics concept, a strategy game wherein two players have the option to either cooperate or betray the other player. the objective: maximize your own payoffs at the expense of the other player/prisoner.

i believe it's time to see the payoff matrix. i have never betrayed you. i betrayed myself.

but we both end up free.

i am strength

You are Strength

Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.

This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.

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i have figured something out. and i'm smiling this smile that says, "i know something you don't."

out with the old

happy new year! ermm... no new year's resolutions for me. it's the year of the rat and i'm scavenging for some more time. it's the first day of classes, i have an hour before my class in credit transactions. i'm not prepared... really, i tried to study last night and i woke up at 5 friggin EY-EM to "cram" - the sun wasn't even out yet; but my atrophied brain cells just wouldn't damn work. i wish ma'am gwen won't be able come to class, because i won't. i just made my decision. it's my first absence anyway and it's technically my second "cut" in my entire academic life. besides, even if i show myself i won't make much of my recitation. she makes everyone recite every meeting, by the way.

Elohim, please don't let her come to class...i'll come in my tax 2 class naman po...

oh and please since i'm gonna study naman today and everyday after this day, and you know naman how diligent i am... (i am too...it just doesn't show that much hahaha!) could you make me understand all this shit faster?

oh, and since today is the third day of january, i have three wishes: please make me
1. charming
2. lucky and
3. smart

for this year and the succeeding years. nyahaha. thank You. i love You so much... yey, di papasok si ma'am gwen :)