LUNCH

Legs

twirling.

entwining.

like milk stirred

into coffee.

i trace

the soft contours

of your body

with my tongue.

countless times

i devour you.

i am a cannibal.

i sink my teeth

deep.

into your hot flesh.

you are a meal

i have consumed.

and your taste

i know so well.

my realizations yesterday:

14:00-18:00 whoever knew a building would move me to nostalgia?
…
RCBC: good evening, Burgundy! have you seen those two? they’re supposed to work.
BURGUNDY: good evening, RCBC! nice night we’re having. nope, haven’t seen them. MIA again.
...
yesterday, charms and i watched "once on this island" at RCBC. ‘twas 500+ bucks worth of entertainment. was it worth it? i guess so. i didn't care much about the musical. honest. but i enjoyed making side-comments about jepoy’s kissing scene. hehe) plus watching a musical made me want to listen to these soundtracks again: sound of music, the king and i, honk!, phantom of the opera, aladdin, the little mermaid, beauty and the beast, et al. when i was in long beach (circa 2002), kuya rex gave me a treat i would never forget. we watched beauty and the beast at the terrace theater. oh, gaston…bless that soul who played him. he made me giggle. er..wrong word. he made me insanely happy.

18:00-18:45 two years ago, the yuchengco chapel was witness to two people say their vows before God. they were alone, but they felt that there was a Divine Being blessing their love. they kissed inside that chapel. one shed a tear, the other almost wept.

18:45-21:00 we went to a bazaar along reposo street in makati to support mimi tecson’s little biz. i got this frida necklace for free (it’s also available in bob marley, kurt cobain, amelie etc.) it’s so nice to have cool friends. oh, and charms got tori. she went gaga over the thing.

charms: this is my mom. she looks a lot like me, right?
me: *looks very puzzled, then laughs hysterically*

21:00-22:00 an hour’s ride home to las piñas. thought about my former officemates. thought about work. thought about how i didn’t miss working the night shift. thought about how lucky i am to not have to do things i don’t like doing anymore. thought about those 3 years…how those years weren’t really wasted because i learned a lot. thought about how i grew (not that kind of growth. i’m stuck being 5’ ½”. :P)

22:00-23:00 it’s really creepy that i found francis escudero sexy while he talked about jueteng. but he wasn’t even wearing anything decent (sans a barong tagalog/americana) he was just clad in a gray v-neck t-shirt – and i hung onto every word…i never thought that the word “absurd” could be very sensual. oh yeah, i am so abnormal. but really, smart people are so yummy.

i am definitely gonna get sperm from mensa.

an open letter

i don't know who you are. and i don't want to know who you really are.

i don't want to know...

what TV shows you watch,
what your sleeping position is,

why you don't like ketchup,

if you snore,
if you play a sport,
if you know how to ride a bike,
if you've been heartbroken (i know you really haven't)

i don't even want to know your favorite color.

it's better this way - that we're strangers.

but i find myself addicted to your occasional blog posts. i try so hard to get you out of my head but i can't. your words have invaded me. and in case that you get to read this, i just want you to know that even though we don't know each other that well, you have affected me in ways you can't even imagine.

and i know it's not your fault that you have this capacity to ruin something wonderful. you're simply clueless.

anyway, it's gonna be your 19th birthday soon. and there's a gift in my closet. it's been there for six months now. i wanted to give it to you as a Christmas present, but in case you didn't notice, i haven't been in school for a whole semester. i figured it would be a nice alternative from blogging. besides, your thoughts should be kept private - away from prying souls like me.

now, i don't know if i would have the guts to give it to you. not after promising that i would stay out of your life forever.

i regretted the moment i said it .

i hope that our paths won't cross in the future. you're happy and i'm happy. let's stay that way.

good luck, stranger.

it's a full moon tonight

yesterday, i went to tarlac to give pronunciation+intonation lessons to a bunch of teachers. and..i used my former CSR training materials. (don't sue me, it's for a good cause) :) during the bitsy seminar, i found it weird that they were too appreciative of the lessons and that they were very attentive. hmm...i mean, it's okay, i guess but...it was too much.

eager eyes..
raised hands..
participation galore.

twilight zone.

speaking of the twilight zone...it was my first time to commute alone from the province. i love bus rides, don't get me wrong. but my seatmate was hell. this kid should've sat with his parents. the bus was a friggin two-seater so..i got stuck with him for 3 and half hours.

mommy: eric, anak, gutom ka na ba? (hands over a siopao)
eric: (reaches for it, big arms crushing puny little me: uhh...i forgot to mention he's a BIG kid)
mommy: matulog ka na muna, malayo pa tayo
me: (thinking: huhuhu..malayo pa nga po...)
eric: (sits on the floor, turns his body around, plays gameboy advance, sings to the tune of an airplane crash, tries to sleep on my now bruised right shoulder)
me: (tells self to watch TV..watch TV..oh, look it's Darna.)
conductor: (turns the TV off)

okay, so now you get the picture. "that which cannot kill you will only make you stronger" hehe

oh btw, i have a place to stay! my mom and i scouted for boarding houses a while ago and it was a good thing she came along 'cause her intuition rocks! nice cozy place...lotsa closets, no curfew ;) etc..

and as a last note...i have not yet explored the wonders of cascading style sheets. so in the meantime, this is the best i can do. darn, and it's the end of the month. and i'll be busy soon..

i guess webmastership will have to wait. indefinitely. Darn.

i'm finally home...

St. Therese of the child Jesus interceded for me to get into the hallowed halls of Malcolm. this prayer stuff really works.

let's see..a month ago..this was my situation:

the last day of enrollment for Ateneo Law was April 18. my interview for UP Law was also on the 18th. Disini subtly coerced us not to enroll in any other law school while technically "applying" for UP Law. bye-bye Ateneo.

and a week ago...

i learned that the last day of enrollment in San Beda, for students who did well on the exam was May 19. it's a sort of a hassle-free, privileged enrollment. it was the first time i didn't feel good about topping an exam. for those waitlisted, they will compete for slots on the 27th. here's the deal: i was told that i will know my interview results for UP LAW on the 19th.

but i found out yesterday that i got in. 2 days ago, i would've started a confusion club. and i was about to run for president.

fear / courage

despair / hope

anxiety / peace

doubt / faith

bottom line: miracles do happen.

HTML sucks!

but i'm getting the hang of it :) yipee!

anyway, i've made myself a homepage and by the end of this month i will become a webmaster. hehe. positive thinking always works.

hmmm...what is it about faith? what is it about wishing upon stars? what is it about believing in something so much that it will definitely come true?

i guess people desperately need something to cling to in order to survive.