it's hard to be apathetic
one of my classmates got detained in camp karingal and i'm praying that nothing bad will happen to him. and how stupid of me to still love this sorry, sad excuse for a country. we're in a mess and these are times when we just can't shut our eyes anymore and pretend not to know what's happening around us. CNN once again pictured us as a riotous people and i try very hard to ignore the politics of it all, but watching those people running our country manipulate words to soothe the aching public...sometimes, i don't know whether to laugh or cry.
i cried. damn Freddie Aguilar singing Bayan Ko. that song is enchanted. i may be too young too remember EDSA 1986 but i do remember the song. it's the first song i memorized. well, not really. it was probably jack and jill but nevermind. granny goose is dead. and my tearducts are damned. i hate the TV. sometimes it's better to be a hermit and isolate yourself from the rest of the world. lawbooks and scra volumes in the bookshelves. read opinions. think like corrupt judges without being corrupt.
haay...i miss reading. i mean, i miss reading non-law stuff. i spend 99.99% of my waking hours reading ponencias and codals. that reader on anais nin...it's gathering dust. O. Henry's short stories and that e-book on fairy tales would have to wait. i have banned books stored in my hard drive since last year but i haven't read a single one. i can't wait for summer.
and i miss singing. i went to mass yesterday and saw my former choirmates. i feel i don't belong there anymore. applause. the stage. perform. had a taste of it and it's enough. i still love singing though, even though someone inadvertently made me feel i'm not good enough.
anyway, "make crime pay. be a lawyer." heeeh, that's my new motto. i dumped lao tzu's words of wisdom when i realized he lied. too much pain can kill. but i have long accepted that i am a masochist and there is definitely virtue in pain.
if you know you're dying and you don't do anything about it, is it suicide? hehe. wala lang, just a random query.
i cried. damn Freddie Aguilar singing Bayan Ko. that song is enchanted. i may be too young too remember EDSA 1986 but i do remember the song. it's the first song i memorized. well, not really. it was probably jack and jill but nevermind. granny goose is dead. and my tearducts are damned. i hate the TV. sometimes it's better to be a hermit and isolate yourself from the rest of the world. lawbooks and scra volumes in the bookshelves. read opinions. think like corrupt judges without being corrupt.
haay...i miss reading. i mean, i miss reading non-law stuff. i spend 99.99% of my waking hours reading ponencias and codals. that reader on anais nin...it's gathering dust. O. Henry's short stories and that e-book on fairy tales would have to wait. i have banned books stored in my hard drive since last year but i haven't read a single one. i can't wait for summer.
and i miss singing. i went to mass yesterday and saw my former choirmates. i feel i don't belong there anymore. applause. the stage. perform. had a taste of it and it's enough. i still love singing though, even though someone inadvertently made me feel i'm not good enough.
anyway, "make crime pay. be a lawyer." heeeh, that's my new motto. i dumped lao tzu's words of wisdom when i realized he lied. too much pain can kill. but i have long accepted that i am a masochist and there is definitely virtue in pain.
if you know you're dying and you don't do anything about it, is it suicide? hehe. wala lang, just a random query.
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